Tears of Joy

I hate to start this off by reliving something painful but it tends to make the story better. As I writer you usually keep that tid bit if info hidden but when I blog I sometimes write exactly what I am thinking.

I can't even begin to tell you how excited I was to announce a new bundle of joy back in March. It was the first time we had officially tried or planned a baby have you. If you scroll down you can read my blog on that so I won't go through it all again but needless to say that baby ended up finding its way back up to the creator. I guess he/she just wasn't ready. I can't say I blame it in this day in age, its a scary world. We were heart broken that I went through  week of wondering and worrying and anticipating before we got the news that it wasn't viable (A nice Dr. term you don't want to hear). And after a painful few more weeks I was ready to move on heal.

The healing process has been an interesting one. All around me my friends were announcing their pregnancies with due dates around where mine would have been. On top of that ghosts were coming back from my past willing to haunt me for some reason. It's like that whole getting kicked while your down kind of thing. But honestly I can't dwell too long on this whole woe is me business because I know that there are others who are suffering far worse than I. I say a prayer and face forward and move on with a smile.

It was only our second month after I was cleared to "do it" hahahahah that we successfully created a baby :) I learned in August, right after Mayley's 2nd birthday, that we were expecting baby 2! Boy did I want to tell everyone but for fear of my past experience I held it in tight.  The only person who really knew besides Brad and my mom was Gosia. SHe of course was there when I peed on that lovely stick! LOL Now 11 weeks later I can finally say it. I AM PREGNANT! WE ARE DUE MAY 2nd! Yay! Oh did I have tears of joy when I saw a little baby bouncing inside thriving. What a relief and I feel so blessed.

Now here is the fun, magical, strange whatever you want to call it part of the story. So many of you know and more of you have no clue that I have dreams that come true. So much so that I have been keeping a boat load of dream journals since about 2005. Oh yes and I can prove it. Situation #1 I had a dream that a friend of mine got a tattoo and it was a girl who was not the type to do it. We had never even spoken about it. Then all of a sudden she showed up on my door a few days after my dream with a tattoo on her ankle! I of course showed her my dream that I had written down and she thought that was really neat. Situation #2 (among many) When I was teaching at Gene Ward I had 8 dreams that I was preggers and yes you heard it here, 8 women got pregnant that year. I have dreamt of the space shuttle discovery blowing up days before it did, car accidents that actually happened, and so on. Believe me or not but I have proof.

So anyway, most of my dreams consist of pregnancies. I have learned through my dreams that when I dream I am preggers, someone near is pregnant. When I dream someone else is pregnant it is me. Here I go. I had a dream in 2005 ( my first baby dream) that I had a girl and the birth was quick and easy...enters Mayley in 2008 a girl that was a quick and easy birth. Months after that dream I dreamt I gave birth to a boy due on May 5th. Months before I got pregnant my 2nd time I dreamt that I had a lady had a growing belly and then all of sudden it deflated. Well that is what happened to me. My belly was growing and then i lost the baby and my tummy deflated. I had realized I should trust my dreams and that it wasn't meant to be. This baby is due on May 2nd..I can't help but say it will be a boy and will be due a little late on may 5th. My dreams are a gift and I trust them, they have never misled me or anyone I know.

Well in about 7-9 weeks we will find out what the sex of this baby is....Who thinks its a boy?