I could have never imaged that this day would sneak up on me so quick! I felt like I had forever for her to be just mine, my little buddy who I played with, laughed with, sang to, danced with, hugged when I wanted, and cherished. Of course I will still have all of that with her but the reality is she is forever going to be at school for a large chunk of the day from here on out. Just typing that brings tears to my eyes and breaks my heart a little. I just want to be there with her all day and make sure kids are being nice, that she figures out how to eat her lunch all by herself with no help, and hug her when she needs a little reassurance. This has been my role as her mom for the last 4 years! I don't know anything else. Although I feel a deep sadness that I have to let her go and explore and experience the world, I am so excited for her new journey. I can't wait to see all the new things she learns and how she will grow and begin to discover who she is. I feel so blessed that I was able to set my job as a teacher aside to stay at home with her. Those four years flew by but I got to be there for all her firsts, and witness all the silly moments and all the heartbreaking ones. I got to watch her grow from a baby to a little person every single day. I guess that's why letting her go makes this even harder.
As for Lainey, it will finally be just me and her for a short time before this new baby comes. I am so happy to get that one-on-one time that we haven't had and give her some personal attention. I am sure she will miss her sister and partner in crime very much but she will have fun getting to do things all on her own.
Tomorrow marks the beginning of a new phase in all our lives. I am nervous and excited and I can't wait to share with you all the new adventures we will experience. As for now I leave you with her latest photo shoot done by very good friend and fellow photographer Heather K. Photography. Thank you so much Heather for capturing my girls in these wonderful back to school photos.
